My World is Being OVERTAKEN!

So I always thought that I would be one of those people who could/would keep all baby related items secluded to their room.  UMMMMM I currently have 1 room in my house that doesn't have something baby related in it and that's the dining room and high chairs do and can go in there when they are needed.

I kid you not, in our bedroom currently there is a pack n play set up, toys on my floor and one of the boys lovies just hanging out, in our bathroom we have baby wash, a tub faucet protector that looks like a duck and a walker.  Yesterday there was a Johnny Jump Up on the door there too.  I'm sure some people are thinking, "really a walker in the bathroom, seriously WTF?"  Well let me help you, if you have something you have to do that requires you to shower and you have two babies there isn't much option for a shower unless one or both is in the bathroom with you.  Mine cat nap and during those sweet glorious 30-45 minutes that they actually sleep at the same time I have dishes, laundry and other important household things that I have to do.  Which means playtime in mommy's bathroom while she showers and gets ready.  

Back to my issue at hand they are seriously taking over my world which I suppose I should just accept since they took over my body and mind a while ago.  Seriously, it's amazing that now if I have some "extra" money I would rather just spend it on them and not myself.....another lesson learned as a mother.

An update on the sleep training: naptimes are getting better.  They will now sleep in their own cribs at naptime without screaming as though they are being poked by thousands of nails!  WIN!  However, nights are still hard because let's be honest here, my sleep is the most important thing to me between the hours of 11 PM and 6 AM and if I can quiet the baby down by bringing him to bed with me rather than sit up with him screaming you can better believe what I'll be choosing!

Until Next Time...

What is my biggest surprise as a mom...

I have had so many people ask me what my biggest surprise of being a mom is, I honestly think the biggest one is how their cries pull at every raw nerve inside of me.  I have never been a fan of the Cry It Out method of sleep training with children under 2 because those children do not have the words to express what they need but understand that a modified version to work toward sleeping on their own and developing self soothing techniques is important.  It isn't something I ever see myself doing hardcore but we did start working on transitioning from me having to rock them to sleep EVERY NAP AND NIGHT to laying them down with music and awake to work it out themselves.  Naptime today just about killed me, Plain and Simple.  I laid them down each in their own beds, the same beds that they have slept in most nights since the night they came home from the hospital, you would think these beds transition into beds of nails during the day time based on how they react to being placed in them.  I turned on the music walked out and closed the door.  I had to start a load of diaper laundry so I figured this would be a good time.  I decided that I would let them cry until I got that all taken care of then go back in.  It took me 6 minutes, I went in expecting the crying to be coming from Child Unit 1 well I was wrong it was Child Unit 2 who was loosing his mind.  Only upon seeing me did Child Unit 1 start!  I did a switch between the two of patting backs/rubbing heads until they were both down, 10 minutes and 20 minutes.  They proceeded to sleep for 1.5 hours!  That's the longest morning nap they have taken in a LONG TIME!  Tonight was a bit better so we'll see how it goes!

 As a child care provider crying never really got under my skin because it is a part of every day existence.  These two babies cry and I do a combination of melting because I have to care for their every wish and need but it also pulls every nerve in my body to that space in your head you only really understand as a mother.  It makes me crazy to the fact that I will do whatever it takes to help my child!  So needless to say that in the 20 minutes this morning that my perfect angles were crying their little eyes out it broke my heart, but I sat there to let them know I am with them and I love them.  I pray it gets better or I will be one of those people who has their children sleeping with them as long as the children want and lets be honest, Child Unit 1 moves too much in his sleep for that to good for anyone!  

The love that I have for these boys greatly surpasses anything I could have ever imagined and the fact that it grows so much every day also surprises me as a mother just so that's out there!